IZ IT ALL WORTH IT

18/08/08

IZ IT ALL WORTH IT ?

Where do i start ? May be from the beginning eh ! People fck with there life'z they fck with there own mind'z & in sum case'z we fck wif other'z , with there thoughts & feeling'z there live'z ,,,,, EVERYTHING .
We all meet people for diffrent reason'z , sum becum friend'z ova'z enemy'z & the ova'z passer'z bye . Luckly 4 me av met 1 ov the mozt amazing people that i will eva meet in my life at earlier tym in my life , god sent that person 2 me 4 a reason & me 2 thiz person 4 a reason , weather it bein the same reason or another ? ( will we eva no ) . What eva reason , it'z crossed our path'z & bought alot ov love & respect'z wif it , , , , I have god 2 fank 4 thiz & i am 4 eva in your dept ( thank you god ) .
Not so long ago , i woz a big fat selfish gready bastdad & almost lozt my life 4 it be-coz ov it , be-coz ov thiz thiz person who haz become a spiecal friend 2 me walked in 2 my life , help me understand my accident , under stood me & help me frew it , he woz the only 1 ! WHY ? coz he'd been there b4 himself .. we were the only 2 the dynamic duo EH ! ... Since meetin we have had our up'z nd down'z , wot true friendship duznt , i love the very cheek ov him smootherd in sheer innocence . 2 geva we hit our old way'z bigger n better , well haway we knew the score proper drug wize n all that !!! No 1 or nothin cud put uz down ,, Or so we thought . Haway how fckin arrogant iz that . We play wif r life'z almost lozt them , have our loved 1'z suffer & wot 4 all 4 our selfish reason'z . A stinken BUZZ .
Then owt the blue on a normal day , yet again it happens again , in a blink ov a eye , 1 ov uz r at death'z door again , dancin with the devil , both uz knowing it'z gone 2 far & there'z nothing either 1 ov uz can do any fing about it , knowin the ova'z in the company do not understand the full protential ov the situation , praying 4 a miracle , beggin god 4 a 2nd chance , pleadin we've learnt our lesson wonderin why we've dun thiz 2 our self'z & ova'z again , realizing how fcked up & selfish r sad little lives r 4 repeatin our worst nytmare'z . Woz it all really worth it ? ? ?
Luckly my friend bein the person he iz , pulled him self out ov it & literally " KNOCKIN SUM SENSE IN2 HIM SEL " Stupid fing about it i didnt really no how much thiz person ment 2 me untill thiz happened , i love him he'z my friend & i do not eva wanna lose him 2 a BUZZ , , , , Who know'z that 1 key more i could ov been joinin hiz bad trip wot'z 2 say i cud'nt live frew it , my friend bein a lot younger & fitter then my sel , Me bein a old bird ( so 2 speak ) . That could ov been me , i could be puttin my blandy , my friends & family frew that , Wot if i deid who wud love my son ? WOT A FCKIN MORON I AM ...
I could go on 4 eva with my wot if'z , may be'z & all the rezt , Iv had 2 sit & watch my friend , question hiz own mind & fck him self up badly in the head , i had 2 watch him drag hiz sel from death'z door back 2 uz , the 1'z that love him 2 bit'z , iv stood & watched him torchure him self 4 me 2 realise finally once & 4 all that thiz whole BUZZ fing iz not my cup ov tea & mozt IMPORTANT ov all he 2 haz realised it'z not hiz cup eiva ,, THANK THE LORD .
Let thiz b a lesson 2 ya all . Not 1 ov uz iz indistructable , we who contnue 2 fck r self'z ova givin it the big i am , wen infact all we truelly r , r real small minded ppl , full ov selfishness . I love my friends & famiy & i do not eva wanna lose them or put them frew any fing lyk that again , am so sorry word'z can not eva express , my baby had 2 witness my stinken antick'z the 1st tym round . How dare me 2 not even consider him " HOW DARE ME " Thank you friend 4 makin me realise my error'z , thank you 4 bringin yr sel back 2 uz & thank u 4 knowin thiz iz the lazt tym , we can still get fully off we can still have a laff & we will always do it 2 geva OUR WAY , the new way , the better way , God bless you , U r a angel , A blessin , I woz blessed 2 b given a friend lyk you ....

Kyla Pattison